Right, skipping all the random starting shit, i fucking LOVE my life. I seem to be the only person I know that can keep a positive attitude all the time. I mean like, sure, I get down and stuff, but over really big things only, otherwise I just enjoy everything I can.
Right, of course there is a main sorce of happiness. The root of my happiness is my absolutely amazing girlfriend. Courteney Elkins. You make me smile like no one else, i'm just myself around you, I feel I can say anything to you and you will understand, you're sucha god damn amazing nig! Even when we are just walking on our own, it doesn't get awkward at all. I just love your company like no one elses and I love you so so so so much. You're my everything and I want it to stay that way. I love you x
Nexttt, I have my bands first gig in less than I week, which im bricking about, but oh well, should be a laugh eh?
Now, what I'm super super super looking forward to is Seeing Emarosa in 21 days :D I fricking LOVE Emarosa and i FRICKING LOVE Gigs.
I have friends that are worth everything I have and could trust with my life.
Especially, a Mr. Ryan Davis.
Dude, you never fail to make me pee my pants laughing, and I think its the same visa versa. You laugh even when I say 'Sure' in the way I do, which is really just 'Sh' really quickly. We have times that no one could ever match. All my favourite memories my life are with you. Man, i love you.
BAI.
Saturday, 20 November 2010
Friday, 29 October 2010
I'll keep you my dirty little secret...
Wassuuupppp blog ;D
So, i'm in a good mood, 'cos like, it's my birthday tomorrow ;D
This is gonna' be a mixed blog ;D
First, I want to say my top 10 songs of the 21st century so far, and explain why they are my favourites.
I'm going to go descending order ;D
10. American Idiot - The song that inspired me to want to make great records just like it, without American Idiot, I probably wouldn't be in a band.
9. Sleep (My Chemical Romance)- Not really anything to do with the meaning, because I don't know what the meaning is :') It's just Rock, from start to finish, and the intro, oh my god, I have an eargasm when ever i hear it.
8. 16 (Futures) - My god, you find me a happier song, I'll give you a thousand medals.
7. The Past Should Stay Dead (Emarosa) - The day I discovered Jonny Craig, my ears ejaculated.
6. Time To Waste (Alkaline Trio) - This is one of those songs, no ones heard about, but it's absolutely, flawless. Lyrics to stun and drumming to Jizz over.
5. Macy's day parade (Green Day) - Well, what an insane song! Billie Joe's voice in this song, is utterly bangable, it's an absolute babe to play and sing too.
4. Talk Tonight (Oasis)- When listening to this song in the car on the way home from my dads, it reminded me of one person, Dannie.
3.Whatsername(Green Day) - Basically a song about moving on, but it's so insane. I can't really explain what that song means to me.
2.Rough Hands (Alexisonfire)- Well, this song has the best line it i've ever heard, which just gives me goosebumps everytime. 'Sometimes love isn't about, how much someone suits you, but how much you're willing to change, to, suit, them.' 'Nuff said, It's all about a guy working his fingers to the bone, doing everything he possibly can, to get the girl he loves, but no matter what he does, she pushes him away, leaves him behind for someone else, even though he gives everything he has to give, something I tend to be encountering lately.
1. 21st Century Breakdown(Green Day) - When I went to see Green Day at wembley, the intro for this came on, Tre ran on stage, everyone went fucking beserk, then Mike ran on, just got his bass, then just was there like 'Oh yeah i'm fucking cool.' Then Billie Joe came on, oh my god, I bet i wasnt the only one in the room that jizzed all over the arena, seeing him in the flesh, has been the best moment of my life, all of that, one song.
K baii ;D BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :D
Bai guyss xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
So, i'm in a good mood, 'cos like, it's my birthday tomorrow ;D
This is gonna' be a mixed blog ;D
First, I want to say my top 10 songs of the 21st century so far, and explain why they are my favourites.
I'm going to go descending order ;D
10. American Idiot - The song that inspired me to want to make great records just like it, without American Idiot, I probably wouldn't be in a band.
9. Sleep (My Chemical Romance)- Not really anything to do with the meaning, because I don't know what the meaning is :') It's just Rock, from start to finish, and the intro, oh my god, I have an eargasm when ever i hear it.
8. 16 (Futures) - My god, you find me a happier song, I'll give you a thousand medals.
7. The Past Should Stay Dead (Emarosa) - The day I discovered Jonny Craig, my ears ejaculated.
6. Time To Waste (Alkaline Trio) - This is one of those songs, no ones heard about, but it's absolutely, flawless. Lyrics to stun and drumming to Jizz over.
5. Macy's day parade (Green Day) - Well, what an insane song! Billie Joe's voice in this song, is utterly bangable, it's an absolute babe to play and sing too.
4. Talk Tonight (Oasis)- When listening to this song in the car on the way home from my dads, it reminded me of one person, Dannie.
3.Whatsername(Green Day) - Basically a song about moving on, but it's so insane. I can't really explain what that song means to me.
2.Rough Hands (Alexisonfire)- Well, this song has the best line it i've ever heard, which just gives me goosebumps everytime. 'Sometimes love isn't about, how much someone suits you, but how much you're willing to change, to, suit, them.' 'Nuff said, It's all about a guy working his fingers to the bone, doing everything he possibly can, to get the girl he loves, but no matter what he does, she pushes him away, leaves him behind for someone else, even though he gives everything he has to give, something I tend to be encountering lately.
1. 21st Century Breakdown(Green Day) - When I went to see Green Day at wembley, the intro for this came on, Tre ran on stage, everyone went fucking beserk, then Mike ran on, just got his bass, then just was there like 'Oh yeah i'm fucking cool.' Then Billie Joe came on, oh my god, I bet i wasnt the only one in the room that jizzed all over the arena, seeing him in the flesh, has been the best moment of my life, all of that, one song.
K baii ;D BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :D
Bai guyss xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
So Give Me Novacaine.
Hey.
Gonna get the sad stuff out of the way. Novacaine, which you saw in my title, is a drug for pain relief. I'm an open person, I don't fear the consequences of what i'm about to say, and i'm sure you've figured it out by now, if not, i'm honestly suprised. Do you feel anything for me at all? Or was it all a lie? You tell me how Much i mean to you, but is it wrong to question what you say? He told you he loved you, you loved him more than me, surely it should have ended there? It would have hurt less had you told me straight away, but I'm here suffering in silence. Yes, I am always here for you, and Yes you are my best friend, but I am, jealous. Jealous of him, and how he gets all of your attention while I settle for a fraction, how he gets all your love and I settle for a fraction. You've done no wrong and none of this is your fault, it's just the way things are i guess.
That be all, cba to write anymore.
Night.
Gonna get the sad stuff out of the way. Novacaine, which you saw in my title, is a drug for pain relief. I'm an open person, I don't fear the consequences of what i'm about to say, and i'm sure you've figured it out by now, if not, i'm honestly suprised. Do you feel anything for me at all? Or was it all a lie? You tell me how Much i mean to you, but is it wrong to question what you say? He told you he loved you, you loved him more than me, surely it should have ended there? It would have hurt less had you told me straight away, but I'm here suffering in silence. Yes, I am always here for you, and Yes you are my best friend, but I am, jealous. Jealous of him, and how he gets all of your attention while I settle for a fraction, how he gets all your love and I settle for a fraction. You've done no wrong and none of this is your fault, it's just the way things are i guess.
That be all, cba to write anymore.
Night.
Sunday, 10 October 2010
It's something unpredictable, that in the end is right...
Get ready for a shit load of shout outs and soppyness xD
Okay, so you ask me, what's more important to me than friends? Nothing.
Sure, recently, i don't have many at all, but the ones I do have, mean more to me than a world of others.
Ryan 'Hickory Stick' Davis:
Dude, what can I say? You're basically sex on legs. You're my best friend. I tell everyone about you, to a point, where i admit, could be classed as creepy. I'm stupidly lucky to have you as my best friend, and no matter how badly we both FAIL with girls, i'd rather fail with you then anyone else <3 I love you man. <3
Georgia 'Blue Fish' Ratford:
Almost a month now since i've met you, and it feels like an eternity. I love you more than chips, and ask anyone, thats A LOT! 'The Problems that have come, haven't yet torn us down', when I realised what had happened, I didn't know what i would do without you, what would i use my unlimited texts on now!? I love you.
Emma 'Edge' Cooley:
Well, you put the phrase of the woman's always right into play like no one ever could. Everytime i've made a mistake by trusting some one, you've told me right from the start and then say sorry 4,000,000 times because i feel like an absolute penis because i should have listened to you. I honestly hurt inside when you don't come and see me at school ;D You're so wonderfully weird and hilarious, I love your laugh too, it's amazing, and when you steal my phone ¬¬ I love you.
Emily 'Turd The Light On' Urban:
Wow. Where to start. You mean more than I could possibly say. Sure, we've had ups and downs, but when it comes down to it, we could chat for hours and hours on end and still end up making puddles on the floor laughing. It frustrates me silly amounts that I can't quite sum up what you mean to me. I've never thought 'What would I do if i lost you' because the simple answer is, i never will. I can't imagine my life without you, the once every, 2 months or more we see each other, its insane! I love you.
Sam 'Just a generally clumsy person' Jolley:
I'm not kidding, Since you've been to university, I've been so bored, sitting eating dinner without you watching Bear Gryll's skin and eat a snake, going to the dentist without you laughing at my pain, talking to you after your football match about someone, somehow, ripping all the flesh off of your legs, going into town and making up funny names for items, watching you spend £11,000,000 in millets, seeing you completely fail at making fires in the garden, and the one time you do manage to make a fire which may have the capability to burn a ant at max, you're really proud of yourself, well you should be, i'm the proudest brother in the world that you have gotten into university, and i'm so happy for you even though i miss you so much. I admit, since you've gone I have checked your facebook daily just to hear about you getting drunk. I love you man.
Carmen 'Hafeez' McSweeney:
Well, Carmen, since you left E.P, i see you once maybe, every month, and it frickin' sucks. we'll see each other LOADS more when we start gigging again though, so i'm happy. You're the most kick ass bass player EVER! You've been playing just shy of six months and i can teach you something and within five minutes you've learned it!? You're an Absolute babe and mean more than the earth to me. I love you.
Dannie 'Hugs' Couzins:
Well, you're a new friend of mine, but you are an absolute LEGEND! Everytime i see you, i shout DANNIEEEEE! And then you go CONNOR! And then we like, hug each other xD You're such an insane dancer, and i know you think i am too, with my dad dancing in Mumma Mia ;) I love you.
That be all :)
Cyaaa
Connor Jeremiah Langham
Okay, so you ask me, what's more important to me than friends? Nothing.
Sure, recently, i don't have many at all, but the ones I do have, mean more to me than a world of others.
Ryan 'Hickory Stick' Davis:
Dude, what can I say? You're basically sex on legs. You're my best friend. I tell everyone about you, to a point, where i admit, could be classed as creepy. I'm stupidly lucky to have you as my best friend, and no matter how badly we both FAIL with girls, i'd rather fail with you then anyone else <3 I love you man. <3
Georgia 'Blue Fish' Ratford:
Almost a month now since i've met you, and it feels like an eternity. I love you more than chips, and ask anyone, thats A LOT! 'The Problems that have come, haven't yet torn us down', when I realised what had happened, I didn't know what i would do without you, what would i use my unlimited texts on now!? I love you.
Emma 'Edge' Cooley:
Well, you put the phrase of the woman's always right into play like no one ever could. Everytime i've made a mistake by trusting some one, you've told me right from the start and then say sorry 4,000,000 times because i feel like an absolute penis because i should have listened to you. I honestly hurt inside when you don't come and see me at school ;D You're so wonderfully weird and hilarious, I love your laugh too, it's amazing, and when you steal my phone ¬¬ I love you.
Emily 'Turd The Light On' Urban:
Wow. Where to start. You mean more than I could possibly say. Sure, we've had ups and downs, but when it comes down to it, we could chat for hours and hours on end and still end up making puddles on the floor laughing. It frustrates me silly amounts that I can't quite sum up what you mean to me. I've never thought 'What would I do if i lost you' because the simple answer is, i never will. I can't imagine my life without you, the once every, 2 months or more we see each other, its insane! I love you.
Sam 'Just a generally clumsy person' Jolley:
I'm not kidding, Since you've been to university, I've been so bored, sitting eating dinner without you watching Bear Gryll's skin and eat a snake, going to the dentist without you laughing at my pain, talking to you after your football match about someone, somehow, ripping all the flesh off of your legs, going into town and making up funny names for items, watching you spend £11,000,000 in millets, seeing you completely fail at making fires in the garden, and the one time you do manage to make a fire which may have the capability to burn a ant at max, you're really proud of yourself, well you should be, i'm the proudest brother in the world that you have gotten into university, and i'm so happy for you even though i miss you so much. I admit, since you've gone I have checked your facebook daily just to hear about you getting drunk. I love you man.
Carmen 'Hafeez' McSweeney:
Well, Carmen, since you left E.P, i see you once maybe, every month, and it frickin' sucks. we'll see each other LOADS more when we start gigging again though, so i'm happy. You're the most kick ass bass player EVER! You've been playing just shy of six months and i can teach you something and within five minutes you've learned it!? You're an Absolute babe and mean more than the earth to me. I love you.
Dannie 'Hugs' Couzins:
Well, you're a new friend of mine, but you are an absolute LEGEND! Everytime i see you, i shout DANNIEEEEE! And then you go CONNOR! And then we like, hug each other xD You're such an insane dancer, and i know you think i am too, with my dad dancing in Mumma Mia ;) I love you.
That be all :)
Cyaaa
Connor Jeremiah Langham
Saturday, 9 October 2010
In the words of Shadows Fall, DAAAH BLAAHH GAARRR BA GARRRR!!
Oh Hai Dere Blog, Me, U, Beadon, 4 o clock.
Firstly, I feel this in a very important issue...
I wish to name my SECOND born son Tim, for reasons to be explained: Tim, is short for Optimus, and personally, I think it'd be so sick to have the same name as the most Badass robot ever.
I wish to name my first born Billie Joe, for obvious reasons.
Tbh, I'm gonna name second Tim wether its a boy or girl, LOL i joke, megatron suits a girl wayy more.
For all of you interested, i'm currently balancing a tray on my head.
I'm not really in a serious mood, maybe its the fact i'm listening to hairy sweaty men shouting.
The tray is still sitting Nicely on my head.
Emma Cooley.
Cya you all soon, that is all.
P.S Maybe the tray will still be on my head in the next blog, now wouldn't that be impressive?
Firstly, I feel this in a very important issue...
I wish to name my SECOND born son Tim, for reasons to be explained: Tim, is short for Optimus, and personally, I think it'd be so sick to have the same name as the most Badass robot ever.
I wish to name my first born Billie Joe, for obvious reasons.
Tbh, I'm gonna name second Tim wether its a boy or girl, LOL i joke, megatron suits a girl wayy more.
For all of you interested, i'm currently balancing a tray on my head.
I'm not really in a serious mood, maybe its the fact i'm listening to hairy sweaty men shouting.
The tray is still sitting Nicely on my head.
Emma Cooley.
Cya you all soon, that is all.
P.S Maybe the tray will still be on my head in the next blog, now wouldn't that be impressive?
Monday, 27 September 2010
If It Hurts This Much, Then It Must Be Love.
Georgia Georgia Georgia <3
Well, what I'm about to say speaks for its self really, in the last week and a half we have sent 346 texts to each other. I honestly don't know what to say about that. The closest someone is to that on my phone, is 77. This has been the best week and a half of my life, and I say that with confidence. You just fascinate me so much, I'm desperate to know how you are all the time, and you could tell me every single bit of your life, and I wouldn't get bored, because its you. I love you, Everything you say stuns me, you're the most amazing person. You deserve everything I can ever give you and more, you absolutely stunning person. I'm sorry that I can never be everything you deserve. I try my best to make you happy more than anyone, when you're happy I instantly am. I wake up speaking to you, I go to bed speaking to you, and that's not even exaggerating.
I might sound like a dick here, because I'm only young and all that, but I am in love with you. I think about you every second I'm awake. I, Love, You. I can't say it enough and it probably gets annoying :L xx Sorry if it does ;D Every time you say i'm cold, i just want to run the whole way across bracknell just to hug you, but If i did i know i'd never want to let go x I'm sorry I'm occasionally a bit of a dick toward you, and i'm so sorry, really I am, i regret it everytime i am because you mean so much to me and I just don't know what i would do without you.
I want to be with you forever, You're the one for me. Everyone says you know when you've found the one for you, theres that feeling. I can only guess this feeling is it <3
I love you Georgia Ratford, more than anyone else that walks this earth, I love you.
Well, what I'm about to say speaks for its self really, in the last week and a half we have sent 346 texts to each other. I honestly don't know what to say about that. The closest someone is to that on my phone, is 77. This has been the best week and a half of my life, and I say that with confidence. You just fascinate me so much, I'm desperate to know how you are all the time, and you could tell me every single bit of your life, and I wouldn't get bored, because its you. I love you, Everything you say stuns me, you're the most amazing person. You deserve everything I can ever give you and more, you absolutely stunning person. I'm sorry that I can never be everything you deserve. I try my best to make you happy more than anyone, when you're happy I instantly am. I wake up speaking to you, I go to bed speaking to you, and that's not even exaggerating.
I might sound like a dick here, because I'm only young and all that, but I am in love with you. I think about you every second I'm awake. I, Love, You. I can't say it enough and it probably gets annoying :L xx Sorry if it does ;D Every time you say i'm cold, i just want to run the whole way across bracknell just to hug you, but If i did i know i'd never want to let go x I'm sorry I'm occasionally a bit of a dick toward you, and i'm so sorry, really I am, i regret it everytime i am because you mean so much to me and I just don't know what i would do without you.
I want to be with you forever, You're the one for me. Everyone says you know when you've found the one for you, theres that feeling. I can only guess this feeling is it <3
I love you Georgia Ratford, more than anyone else that walks this earth, I love you.
Thursday, 23 September 2010
Why Won't You Hear Me When I'm Callin' Out For You?
Right, so anyone that expected me to blog about me, you'll be disappointed (Disjointed) This blog is all about a girl; Georgia Ratford. Easily the Most Amazing Girl I have ever met. So all of this goes out to you.
Georgia, where do I start? It's been exactly a week today that I've known you, but its seemed like an eternity, I've not had to hesitate about telling you any of my secrets, or anything that I'm normally un-secure about telling people, you just make me feel so safe. I don't need to lie about the fact that I am in love with you, nor do I need to lie about that I know I want to be with you, forever, so much. When you said you wanted to speak to me and it was bad today, not gonna lie, I actually felt like throwing up LOL I just wanted to cry, i thought i was going to lose what we had, and with a feeling like this, one i've never had before, i, i don't know what i would have done. It annoys me when you say you aren't pretty because you are! As I said before, you may not think you're pretty, but inside you are a much more Beautiful person than anyone. Now for the Ilove you stuff xD
Georgia Ratford, I love you, more than I have or could love anyone or anything, I haven't stopped thinking about you and how much I love you, I've been searching for a word that explains how much you mean to me, but such thing doesn't exist. I'm lost for words. I love you so much, please, never leave my side, I don't know what I would do, I promise I will never ever hurt you, I just can't express enough how much I love you! I love you so much! I want you to tell me that you are in love with me, even though you have done before, just to assure that you still do. I am in love with you.
If we both feel like this and its been a week, maybe we're meant to be? I Love You.
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I love you Georgia, for the Millionth time, I just do.
Love from Connor. x
Georgia, where do I start? It's been exactly a week today that I've known you, but its seemed like an eternity, I've not had to hesitate about telling you any of my secrets, or anything that I'm normally un-secure about telling people, you just make me feel so safe. I don't need to lie about the fact that I am in love with you, nor do I need to lie about that I know I want to be with you, forever, so much. When you said you wanted to speak to me and it was bad today, not gonna lie, I actually felt like throwing up LOL I just wanted to cry, i thought i was going to lose what we had, and with a feeling like this, one i've never had before, i, i don't know what i would have done. It annoys me when you say you aren't pretty because you are! As I said before, you may not think you're pretty, but inside you are a much more Beautiful person than anyone. Now for the Ilove you stuff xD
Georgia Ratford, I love you, more than I have or could love anyone or anything, I haven't stopped thinking about you and how much I love you, I've been searching for a word that explains how much you mean to me, but such thing doesn't exist. I'm lost for words. I love you so much, please, never leave my side, I don't know what I would do, I promise I will never ever hurt you, I just can't express enough how much I love you! I love you so much! I want you to tell me that you are in love with me, even though you have done before, just to assure that you still do. I am in love with you.
If we both feel like this and its been a week, maybe we're meant to be? I Love You.
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I love you Georgia, for the Millionth time, I just do.
Love from Connor. x
Monday, 20 September 2010
I would put my new blog, but eventually this will be old.
I just noticed my title could be taken as quite depressing LOL Oh well, it's still the truth ;D
Sup Blog.
Times have been good since we last spoke, 3 days ago. This Blog is neither happy nor sad, its sorta', just stuff I wanted to say. I've recently been fixed on depressing songs such as...
In Transit - Mark Hoppus
Her Name Is Alice - Shinedown
4am Forever - Lostprophets
Still Fighting It - Ben Folds
I would listen to Fix You by Coldplay, but if i hear that, i cry, simples.
Anyway's, what I said earlier about a bit of both goes out the window for a bit, this is sad time. I'm not gonna' blame anyone for my sadness, things just happen. Still Fighting It, the song I mentioned earlier, is about a Dad watching his son grow up, something my dad never did. Sure, recently I've been seeing my dad more and more, but nothing, ever, could compensate for the time lost with my father, when I needed him more than anyone, he wasn't there for me. This has made me what I am, a emotionally unstable person. I'm never going to be a toddler again, I'm never going to be a primary school student again, those years when you would have learned everything about me. You would have known, that I don't like going to see steam trains any more like I used to, I'm different, and I'm afraid to tell you that. I can tell that for the last year you've made a effort, that's why I'm afraid, I just, don't want you to stop trying. This is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to say, I have a feeling that much like you and your dad, we won't speak when I'm 30, I love you, more than anyone, but I think you're just too late, I'm sorry, I hate it, but I just feel its the truth.
Sorry, after that paragraph, I just can't write anymore.
Bye x
Sup Blog.
Times have been good since we last spoke, 3 days ago. This Blog is neither happy nor sad, its sorta', just stuff I wanted to say. I've recently been fixed on depressing songs such as...
In Transit - Mark Hoppus
Her Name Is Alice - Shinedown
4am Forever - Lostprophets
Still Fighting It - Ben Folds
I would listen to Fix You by Coldplay, but if i hear that, i cry, simples.
Anyway's, what I said earlier about a bit of both goes out the window for a bit, this is sad time. I'm not gonna' blame anyone for my sadness, things just happen. Still Fighting It, the song I mentioned earlier, is about a Dad watching his son grow up, something my dad never did. Sure, recently I've been seeing my dad more and more, but nothing, ever, could compensate for the time lost with my father, when I needed him more than anyone, he wasn't there for me. This has made me what I am, a emotionally unstable person. I'm never going to be a toddler again, I'm never going to be a primary school student again, those years when you would have learned everything about me. You would have known, that I don't like going to see steam trains any more like I used to, I'm different, and I'm afraid to tell you that. I can tell that for the last year you've made a effort, that's why I'm afraid, I just, don't want you to stop trying. This is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to say, I have a feeling that much like you and your dad, we won't speak when I'm 30, I love you, more than anyone, but I think you're just too late, I'm sorry, I hate it, but I just feel its the truth.
Sorry, after that paragraph, I just can't write anymore.
Bye x
Friday, 17 September 2010
Welcome To Mystery
Just an update, things have changed, alot.
Firstly, I am writing this blog in the font of 'Georgia' who, is the girl (Not you Georgia Ratford, you're a babe, this about some other silly hoe i know.) I've recently come to dislike, quite a bit. She's mucked me about for so bloody long I've just about had it, life's too short for me to carry on admiring you when I know its only gonna' end up in one of us, mostly me, getting pissed off. I've been told for so long that you don't deserve me, I've decided to do something I should have done a long time ago, take their advice.
On the subject of friends, I've got a small amount, but they are the best friends anyone could ever have, these are a couple...
Ryan 'Ravis' Davis: My best friend, I can't say anything that hasn't already been said, we're gonna' be best mates forever and ever, nothing will ever change that.
Emma 'To The' Cooley: Just about one of the biggest babes I've ever met, honestly, she's so random, I would give anyone £100 to guess correctly what she would say next in a sentence; half of what she says doesn't even make sense, but its still hilarious.
Emily 'Turd The Light On' Urban: Recently our conversations have gone nowhere near as smooth as usual, they've been crap, but we've been through these dry spots before, but we always come back with the best, and funniest, most screwed up and random chats ever, which I will never forget <3
Georgia 'Blue Fish' Ratford: Well, what can I say, I've known you for, what, 3 days, and we've hit it off like fire and oil. You already have a nickname said exclusively by me :D I feel like I've known you a lifetime, I want to be friends with you forever, you amazing, yet smelly, blue fish.
Jack 'Farticus' Buckland-Roll: Well, what can I say, I know you won't read this because you never ever go on the internet you n00b, but still, we have the funniest times, you are like a spider you just climb on everything, i swear you are actually stuck from when we were monkeys? Love you lil bro.
Anyway's that's all for now folks!
Baii
Connor x
Wednesday, 25 August 2010
The Happy Extension From My Previously Depressing Blog xD
'He looks like a depressed monkey man!'
Hey Blog!
You SMELL!
LOL jk bbe.
Okay, so into the actual blog now xD
As you can probably tell, i'm not the depressing arse i was in my last blog :D Recently i've sorta got a new attitude, which i love :) Basically, screw everything that puts you down, Being sad is time wasted, well, for me anyway. I just enjoy every moment possible, like, me and Ryan went to coral reef recently, got back from a 'Adventurous' bike ride home just to lye on the grass outside his house for 25 mins and look at the sky, instead of getting bored, Watching the world go by with my best friend lying next to me, hearing the leaves on the tall brown tree's gently rustle and having a gentle breeze on my face, was one of the best times of my life. It's times like these when I just forget all the turd that's going on, whether its tiny stupid personal problems which I should really get over or the nation's just turned to mush, I couldn't care any less as long as I'm enjoying myself, and the people i'm with are having a good time. The past's the past, and now i'm living in the present :D
I've also started to express myself more; I used to be scared of being called Emo or being stereotyped, but now I just realise how stupid stereotyping is all together and it really doesn't effect me whatever when i'm called Emo or whatever from what i wear or listen to. Fitting in with society is something i've never understood, especially when the people with the worst case of the 'Society Sickness' claim they are their own person, that cracks me up.
I've also got a new attitude, that I just want to learn, that may sound so weird, but its true. Just to say, I have the skill of being able to do whatever it is, All through the summer i've thought, 'Man i'd love to learn to play keyboard!' or 'Dude, I really wanna make some animations on the PC!'. The only thing stopping me before was the fact I always thought it would take too much time, but then i thought, I'm 13, ive got a good 60 years left, that sounds like enough time to me, and , I always feel like im waiting for something, and i know what i'm waiting for, i'm waiting for something to occupy me forever, well if i have all these skills, how will i ever get bored? So as of the start of year nine, i'm gonna try my hardest to learn everything possible.
My Shout Outs...
Ryan: Dude i've spent so much time with you in the holidays, but i haven't got bored once! Here's too one year of being mates! You know me better than anyone, and you said the nicest thing that anyones ever said to me: I could learn things about you for hours and hours and not get bored.
Emily: Man, i think it was about a year today that we started talking again after you fell out with me, and in that time we've become closer than ever! You're my best friend and i feel i know you better than myself.
Cooley: There's not been a day when I haven't thought about you, and i'm so thankful for how much you make me feel better :D
Georgia: I just, don't know what to put, don't change a bit, I love you.
Charlie: Man I know we aren't what we used to be, but we'll come back man, promise.
Sam: Seriously well done getting into uni, I'm unexplainably proud of you! My brother going to University, I feel so lucky to have you as a brother. You being in a good mood puts me in a good mood.
Mum: Well, lately, we've had some huge laughs, I always thought when i became a teenager i would fall further from my parents, but we have better conversations and more fun now than ever.
Dad: Part of the reason why I'm so happy recently is because the part of me that was missing i've found. I've got confidence around you now that I didn't think i could ever have around you 4 years ago, please let things stay this way, i don't want to loose my dad again.
Cheers for hearing me, um, be happy ;D
Love you guys :D
Connor :) x
Sunday, 4 July 2010
Love Me Or Hate Me, You Should Read This.
Alright, so, how do I start this? Dear Blog? That sounds cool.
Dear Blog.
Life's pretty shit, sorry, but, It's true. Funny really because a couple of days ago, I was on top of the world, its strange how life can go from good to, well, total shit storm. I'm writing this Blog in the font of 'Georgia' which is really quite ironic considering that's the name of the girl I'm in love with. I can't elaborate on how shit I'm feeling really. But, I know what's happened isn't my fault, entirely anyway....
I was going out with a girl called Jasmine Hancock for almost a month, near the end of our relationship, I once again made contact with my Ex-girlfriend Georgia Lee. At this point, everything came rushing back, how she was my dream girl, everything I've ever wanted, the only one I want to be with. This, just about screwed everything up. I thought I would do the sensible thing, and talk to my girlfriend about it, she seemed to take it well, I wanted her to tell me what to do, but she just said its my decision, which it is, well, was. I decided it was unfair for me to lead on Jasmine any more because I loved another girl, more than I loved her. I would like to point out now, this was one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make, and I am not proud of the fact I loved Georgia at the same time. I told Jasmine that it was over, she seemed to take it well. 10 minutes later BAM! Her sisters on-line and having a fit at me, calling me, and Georgia 'Munta's', Calling Georgia a slut. Georgia is one of the prettiest girls I have ever met, and is by no measure a Slut. I decided to sleep, and see where things stood in the morning. In the morning, I spoke to Georgia on Facebook chat, well, tried too. She was turbo-pissed at me, for no obvious reason. I checked her profile, Oh No.....
She'd added Jasmine as a friend, this couldn't be good. I have reason to believe that Jasmine, Is spreading shit about me. My evidence came later in the day when one of my best friends, Hannah, told me that she was slagging me off to her. Well wasn't I just over the moon to see my friends turning against me?
Anyway, now for the stuff that's actually making me happy. I have currently found new best friends in Emma Cooley ( and her brother ;] ), Beth Walters and Jade Freeman, Cheers for being there for me guys :D Second, my band, Zero To Nothing are just about the best thing in my life, and the best thing that's ever happened to me. Emily, Ellie, Ryan, Catherine, Sam, Joe, Jack, what can I say other than you guys are the SEX! Alex, Charlie, Mason, Caitlyn. At school, I swear you guys are the only people that actually like me ;D The McSweeney's, well, what can I say, your family is like mine, Scott, And Carmen, you two are the most consistent friends I've ever had, that'll never change.
Georgia, if you ever actually read this, I love you, more than any amount of Blog could express. I'm 13, but you're my dream girl, I know it. Please find it in you to see past all the shit that's going down, and love me for the person you know I am, like you said you did.
Cheers for hearing me Bitch.
Loads Of Love
Connor
x
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