Hello Blog :D
Happy New Year, Happy Christmas, Happy Thanksgiving, Happy Divali, whatever it is you celebrate, have a good one! Sorry I haven't blogged for a while, that's if you actually read this, which I doubt anyone does but meh well :P
Have you ever felt sad, but really had no reason to whatsoever? You've just felt down and damn right miserable? I did for like the whole December month then BAM the moment 2011 kicked in, I was just like 'Stop being a depressive whining pussy Connor, you've got everything you want now shut yo' mouth biatch! For the whole 3 days (I know, long time! ;O) of 2011 so far I've just been so care free and happy ;D 2011 holds so many things to look forward to and I just want to enjoy every day of it!
New Years Resolutions:
Take what I want, don't wait for it.
Stay Positive.
Don't let silly little things get me down.
Don't be so god damn paranoid about things!
Keep to my new years resolutions LOL.
About the title of this blog...
If you could rewind, your time, would you change your life?
I don't think I would, it's far too easy to say you have regrets, it's time everyone started being proud of everything they've ever done. You may think that's stupid, but at some point, everything you've ever done, was the thing you really wanted to say or do. Weather what you did was for better or for worse in the end, it was what you wanted to do, and if you can't be proud of doing what, maybe even for a split second made you happy, then how can you ever happily accept you can't change the past? I know half the things I've done have not made everyone happy, but at the end of the day, I've always tried to do what's right for me, and that's why I think I feel brilliant, happiness is taken, not given, you can never be happy without upsetting someone else, don't take advantage or it will come right back around, I know that, but if you really want something, take it.
See you guys :) x
Lovesss
Connor x
Monday, 3 January 2011
Saturday, 20 November 2010
Put a bullet in my head, till black turns to red.
Right, skipping all the random starting shit, i fucking LOVE my life. I seem to be the only person I know that can keep a positive attitude all the time. I mean like, sure, I get down and stuff, but over really big things only, otherwise I just enjoy everything I can.
Right, of course there is a main sorce of happiness. The root of my happiness is my absolutely amazing girlfriend. Courteney Elkins. You make me smile like no one else, i'm just myself around you, I feel I can say anything to you and you will understand, you're sucha god damn amazing nig! Even when we are just walking on our own, it doesn't get awkward at all. I just love your company like no one elses and I love you so so so so much. You're my everything and I want it to stay that way. I love you x
Nexttt, I have my bands first gig in less than I week, which im bricking about, but oh well, should be a laugh eh?
Now, what I'm super super super looking forward to is Seeing Emarosa in 21 days :D I fricking LOVE Emarosa and i FRICKING LOVE Gigs.
I have friends that are worth everything I have and could trust with my life.
Especially, a Mr. Ryan Davis.
Dude, you never fail to make me pee my pants laughing, and I think its the same visa versa. You laugh even when I say 'Sure' in the way I do, which is really just 'Sh' really quickly. We have times that no one could ever match. All my favourite memories my life are with you. Man, i love you.
BAI.
Right, of course there is a main sorce of happiness. The root of my happiness is my absolutely amazing girlfriend. Courteney Elkins. You make me smile like no one else, i'm just myself around you, I feel I can say anything to you and you will understand, you're sucha god damn amazing nig! Even when we are just walking on our own, it doesn't get awkward at all. I just love your company like no one elses and I love you so so so so much. You're my everything and I want it to stay that way. I love you x
Nexttt, I have my bands first gig in less than I week, which im bricking about, but oh well, should be a laugh eh?
Now, what I'm super super super looking forward to is Seeing Emarosa in 21 days :D I fricking LOVE Emarosa and i FRICKING LOVE Gigs.
I have friends that are worth everything I have and could trust with my life.
Especially, a Mr. Ryan Davis.
Dude, you never fail to make me pee my pants laughing, and I think its the same visa versa. You laugh even when I say 'Sure' in the way I do, which is really just 'Sh' really quickly. We have times that no one could ever match. All my favourite memories my life are with you. Man, i love you.
BAI.
Friday, 29 October 2010
I'll keep you my dirty little secret...
Wassuuupppp blog ;D
So, i'm in a good mood, 'cos like, it's my birthday tomorrow ;D
This is gonna' be a mixed blog ;D
First, I want to say my top 10 songs of the 21st century so far, and explain why they are my favourites.
I'm going to go descending order ;D
10. American Idiot - The song that inspired me to want to make great records just like it, without American Idiot, I probably wouldn't be in a band.
9. Sleep (My Chemical Romance)- Not really anything to do with the meaning, because I don't know what the meaning is :') It's just Rock, from start to finish, and the intro, oh my god, I have an eargasm when ever i hear it.
8. 16 (Futures) - My god, you find me a happier song, I'll give you a thousand medals.
7. The Past Should Stay Dead (Emarosa) - The day I discovered Jonny Craig, my ears ejaculated.
6. Time To Waste (Alkaline Trio) - This is one of those songs, no ones heard about, but it's absolutely, flawless. Lyrics to stun and drumming to Jizz over.
5. Macy's day parade (Green Day) - Well, what an insane song! Billie Joe's voice in this song, is utterly bangable, it's an absolute babe to play and sing too.
4. Talk Tonight (Oasis)- When listening to this song in the car on the way home from my dads, it reminded me of one person, Dannie.
3.Whatsername(Green Day) - Basically a song about moving on, but it's so insane. I can't really explain what that song means to me.
2.Rough Hands (Alexisonfire)- Well, this song has the best line it i've ever heard, which just gives me goosebumps everytime. 'Sometimes love isn't about, how much someone suits you, but how much you're willing to change, to, suit, them.' 'Nuff said, It's all about a guy working his fingers to the bone, doing everything he possibly can, to get the girl he loves, but no matter what he does, she pushes him away, leaves him behind for someone else, even though he gives everything he has to give, something I tend to be encountering lately.
1. 21st Century Breakdown(Green Day) - When I went to see Green Day at wembley, the intro for this came on, Tre ran on stage, everyone went fucking beserk, then Mike ran on, just got his bass, then just was there like 'Oh yeah i'm fucking cool.' Then Billie Joe came on, oh my god, I bet i wasnt the only one in the room that jizzed all over the arena, seeing him in the flesh, has been the best moment of my life, all of that, one song.
K baii ;D BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :D
Bai guyss xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
So, i'm in a good mood, 'cos like, it's my birthday tomorrow ;D
This is gonna' be a mixed blog ;D
First, I want to say my top 10 songs of the 21st century so far, and explain why they are my favourites.
I'm going to go descending order ;D
10. American Idiot - The song that inspired me to want to make great records just like it, without American Idiot, I probably wouldn't be in a band.
9. Sleep (My Chemical Romance)- Not really anything to do with the meaning, because I don't know what the meaning is :') It's just Rock, from start to finish, and the intro, oh my god, I have an eargasm when ever i hear it.
8. 16 (Futures) - My god, you find me a happier song, I'll give you a thousand medals.
7. The Past Should Stay Dead (Emarosa) - The day I discovered Jonny Craig, my ears ejaculated.
6. Time To Waste (Alkaline Trio) - This is one of those songs, no ones heard about, but it's absolutely, flawless. Lyrics to stun and drumming to Jizz over.
5. Macy's day parade (Green Day) - Well, what an insane song! Billie Joe's voice in this song, is utterly bangable, it's an absolute babe to play and sing too.
4. Talk Tonight (Oasis)- When listening to this song in the car on the way home from my dads, it reminded me of one person, Dannie.
3.Whatsername(Green Day) - Basically a song about moving on, but it's so insane. I can't really explain what that song means to me.
2.Rough Hands (Alexisonfire)- Well, this song has the best line it i've ever heard, which just gives me goosebumps everytime. 'Sometimes love isn't about, how much someone suits you, but how much you're willing to change, to, suit, them.' 'Nuff said, It's all about a guy working his fingers to the bone, doing everything he possibly can, to get the girl he loves, but no matter what he does, she pushes him away, leaves him behind for someone else, even though he gives everything he has to give, something I tend to be encountering lately.
1. 21st Century Breakdown(Green Day) - When I went to see Green Day at wembley, the intro for this came on, Tre ran on stage, everyone went fucking beserk, then Mike ran on, just got his bass, then just was there like 'Oh yeah i'm fucking cool.' Then Billie Joe came on, oh my god, I bet i wasnt the only one in the room that jizzed all over the arena, seeing him in the flesh, has been the best moment of my life, all of that, one song.
K baii ;D BIRTHDAY TOMORROW :D
Bai guyss xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
So Give Me Novacaine.
Hey.
Gonna get the sad stuff out of the way. Novacaine, which you saw in my title, is a drug for pain relief. I'm an open person, I don't fear the consequences of what i'm about to say, and i'm sure you've figured it out by now, if not, i'm honestly suprised. Do you feel anything for me at all? Or was it all a lie? You tell me how Much i mean to you, but is it wrong to question what you say? He told you he loved you, you loved him more than me, surely it should have ended there? It would have hurt less had you told me straight away, but I'm here suffering in silence. Yes, I am always here for you, and Yes you are my best friend, but I am, jealous. Jealous of him, and how he gets all of your attention while I settle for a fraction, how he gets all your love and I settle for a fraction. You've done no wrong and none of this is your fault, it's just the way things are i guess.
That be all, cba to write anymore.
Night.
Gonna get the sad stuff out of the way. Novacaine, which you saw in my title, is a drug for pain relief. I'm an open person, I don't fear the consequences of what i'm about to say, and i'm sure you've figured it out by now, if not, i'm honestly suprised. Do you feel anything for me at all? Or was it all a lie? You tell me how Much i mean to you, but is it wrong to question what you say? He told you he loved you, you loved him more than me, surely it should have ended there? It would have hurt less had you told me straight away, but I'm here suffering in silence. Yes, I am always here for you, and Yes you are my best friend, but I am, jealous. Jealous of him, and how he gets all of your attention while I settle for a fraction, how he gets all your love and I settle for a fraction. You've done no wrong and none of this is your fault, it's just the way things are i guess.
That be all, cba to write anymore.
Night.
Sunday, 10 October 2010
It's something unpredictable, that in the end is right...
Get ready for a shit load of shout outs and soppyness xD
Okay, so you ask me, what's more important to me than friends? Nothing.
Sure, recently, i don't have many at all, but the ones I do have, mean more to me than a world of others.
Ryan 'Hickory Stick' Davis:
Dude, what can I say? You're basically sex on legs. You're my best friend. I tell everyone about you, to a point, where i admit, could be classed as creepy. I'm stupidly lucky to have you as my best friend, and no matter how badly we both FAIL with girls, i'd rather fail with you then anyone else <3 I love you man. <3
Georgia 'Blue Fish' Ratford:
Almost a month now since i've met you, and it feels like an eternity. I love you more than chips, and ask anyone, thats A LOT! 'The Problems that have come, haven't yet torn us down', when I realised what had happened, I didn't know what i would do without you, what would i use my unlimited texts on now!? I love you.
Emma 'Edge' Cooley:
Well, you put the phrase of the woman's always right into play like no one ever could. Everytime i've made a mistake by trusting some one, you've told me right from the start and then say sorry 4,000,000 times because i feel like an absolute penis because i should have listened to you. I honestly hurt inside when you don't come and see me at school ;D You're so wonderfully weird and hilarious, I love your laugh too, it's amazing, and when you steal my phone ¬¬ I love you.
Emily 'Turd The Light On' Urban:
Wow. Where to start. You mean more than I could possibly say. Sure, we've had ups and downs, but when it comes down to it, we could chat for hours and hours on end and still end up making puddles on the floor laughing. It frustrates me silly amounts that I can't quite sum up what you mean to me. I've never thought 'What would I do if i lost you' because the simple answer is, i never will. I can't imagine my life without you, the once every, 2 months or more we see each other, its insane! I love you.
Sam 'Just a generally clumsy person' Jolley:
I'm not kidding, Since you've been to university, I've been so bored, sitting eating dinner without you watching Bear Gryll's skin and eat a snake, going to the dentist without you laughing at my pain, talking to you after your football match about someone, somehow, ripping all the flesh off of your legs, going into town and making up funny names for items, watching you spend £11,000,000 in millets, seeing you completely fail at making fires in the garden, and the one time you do manage to make a fire which may have the capability to burn a ant at max, you're really proud of yourself, well you should be, i'm the proudest brother in the world that you have gotten into university, and i'm so happy for you even though i miss you so much. I admit, since you've gone I have checked your facebook daily just to hear about you getting drunk. I love you man.
Carmen 'Hafeez' McSweeney:
Well, Carmen, since you left E.P, i see you once maybe, every month, and it frickin' sucks. we'll see each other LOADS more when we start gigging again though, so i'm happy. You're the most kick ass bass player EVER! You've been playing just shy of six months and i can teach you something and within five minutes you've learned it!? You're an Absolute babe and mean more than the earth to me. I love you.
Dannie 'Hugs' Couzins:
Well, you're a new friend of mine, but you are an absolute LEGEND! Everytime i see you, i shout DANNIEEEEE! And then you go CONNOR! And then we like, hug each other xD You're such an insane dancer, and i know you think i am too, with my dad dancing in Mumma Mia ;) I love you.
That be all :)
Cyaaa
Connor Jeremiah Langham
Okay, so you ask me, what's more important to me than friends? Nothing.
Sure, recently, i don't have many at all, but the ones I do have, mean more to me than a world of others.
Ryan 'Hickory Stick' Davis:
Dude, what can I say? You're basically sex on legs. You're my best friend. I tell everyone about you, to a point, where i admit, could be classed as creepy. I'm stupidly lucky to have you as my best friend, and no matter how badly we both FAIL with girls, i'd rather fail with you then anyone else <3 I love you man. <3
Georgia 'Blue Fish' Ratford:
Almost a month now since i've met you, and it feels like an eternity. I love you more than chips, and ask anyone, thats A LOT! 'The Problems that have come, haven't yet torn us down', when I realised what had happened, I didn't know what i would do without you, what would i use my unlimited texts on now!? I love you.
Emma 'Edge' Cooley:
Well, you put the phrase of the woman's always right into play like no one ever could. Everytime i've made a mistake by trusting some one, you've told me right from the start and then say sorry 4,000,000 times because i feel like an absolute penis because i should have listened to you. I honestly hurt inside when you don't come and see me at school ;D You're so wonderfully weird and hilarious, I love your laugh too, it's amazing, and when you steal my phone ¬¬ I love you.
Emily 'Turd The Light On' Urban:
Wow. Where to start. You mean more than I could possibly say. Sure, we've had ups and downs, but when it comes down to it, we could chat for hours and hours on end and still end up making puddles on the floor laughing. It frustrates me silly amounts that I can't quite sum up what you mean to me. I've never thought 'What would I do if i lost you' because the simple answer is, i never will. I can't imagine my life without you, the once every, 2 months or more we see each other, its insane! I love you.
Sam 'Just a generally clumsy person' Jolley:
I'm not kidding, Since you've been to university, I've been so bored, sitting eating dinner without you watching Bear Gryll's skin and eat a snake, going to the dentist without you laughing at my pain, talking to you after your football match about someone, somehow, ripping all the flesh off of your legs, going into town and making up funny names for items, watching you spend £11,000,000 in millets, seeing you completely fail at making fires in the garden, and the one time you do manage to make a fire which may have the capability to burn a ant at max, you're really proud of yourself, well you should be, i'm the proudest brother in the world that you have gotten into university, and i'm so happy for you even though i miss you so much. I admit, since you've gone I have checked your facebook daily just to hear about you getting drunk. I love you man.
Carmen 'Hafeez' McSweeney:
Well, Carmen, since you left E.P, i see you once maybe, every month, and it frickin' sucks. we'll see each other LOADS more when we start gigging again though, so i'm happy. You're the most kick ass bass player EVER! You've been playing just shy of six months and i can teach you something and within five minutes you've learned it!? You're an Absolute babe and mean more than the earth to me. I love you.
Dannie 'Hugs' Couzins:
Well, you're a new friend of mine, but you are an absolute LEGEND! Everytime i see you, i shout DANNIEEEEE! And then you go CONNOR! And then we like, hug each other xD You're such an insane dancer, and i know you think i am too, with my dad dancing in Mumma Mia ;) I love you.
That be all :)
Cyaaa
Connor Jeremiah Langham
Saturday, 9 October 2010
In the words of Shadows Fall, DAAAH BLAAHH GAARRR BA GARRRR!!
Oh Hai Dere Blog, Me, U, Beadon, 4 o clock.
Firstly, I feel this in a very important issue...
I wish to name my SECOND born son Tim, for reasons to be explained: Tim, is short for Optimus, and personally, I think it'd be so sick to have the same name as the most Badass robot ever.
I wish to name my first born Billie Joe, for obvious reasons.
Tbh, I'm gonna name second Tim wether its a boy or girl, LOL i joke, megatron suits a girl wayy more.
For all of you interested, i'm currently balancing a tray on my head.
I'm not really in a serious mood, maybe its the fact i'm listening to hairy sweaty men shouting.
The tray is still sitting Nicely on my head.
Emma Cooley.
Cya you all soon, that is all.
P.S Maybe the tray will still be on my head in the next blog, now wouldn't that be impressive?
Firstly, I feel this in a very important issue...
I wish to name my SECOND born son Tim, for reasons to be explained: Tim, is short for Optimus, and personally, I think it'd be so sick to have the same name as the most Badass robot ever.
I wish to name my first born Billie Joe, for obvious reasons.
Tbh, I'm gonna name second Tim wether its a boy or girl, LOL i joke, megatron suits a girl wayy more.
For all of you interested, i'm currently balancing a tray on my head.
I'm not really in a serious mood, maybe its the fact i'm listening to hairy sweaty men shouting.
The tray is still sitting Nicely on my head.
Emma Cooley.
Cya you all soon, that is all.
P.S Maybe the tray will still be on my head in the next blog, now wouldn't that be impressive?
Monday, 27 September 2010
If It Hurts This Much, Then It Must Be Love.
Georgia Georgia Georgia <3
Well, what I'm about to say speaks for its self really, in the last week and a half we have sent 346 texts to each other. I honestly don't know what to say about that. The closest someone is to that on my phone, is 77. This has been the best week and a half of my life, and I say that with confidence. You just fascinate me so much, I'm desperate to know how you are all the time, and you could tell me every single bit of your life, and I wouldn't get bored, because its you. I love you, Everything you say stuns me, you're the most amazing person. You deserve everything I can ever give you and more, you absolutely stunning person. I'm sorry that I can never be everything you deserve. I try my best to make you happy more than anyone, when you're happy I instantly am. I wake up speaking to you, I go to bed speaking to you, and that's not even exaggerating.
I might sound like a dick here, because I'm only young and all that, but I am in love with you. I think about you every second I'm awake. I, Love, You. I can't say it enough and it probably gets annoying :L xx Sorry if it does ;D Every time you say i'm cold, i just want to run the whole way across bracknell just to hug you, but If i did i know i'd never want to let go x I'm sorry I'm occasionally a bit of a dick toward you, and i'm so sorry, really I am, i regret it everytime i am because you mean so much to me and I just don't know what i would do without you.
I want to be with you forever, You're the one for me. Everyone says you know when you've found the one for you, theres that feeling. I can only guess this feeling is it <3
I love you Georgia Ratford, more than anyone else that walks this earth, I love you.
Well, what I'm about to say speaks for its self really, in the last week and a half we have sent 346 texts to each other. I honestly don't know what to say about that. The closest someone is to that on my phone, is 77. This has been the best week and a half of my life, and I say that with confidence. You just fascinate me so much, I'm desperate to know how you are all the time, and you could tell me every single bit of your life, and I wouldn't get bored, because its you. I love you, Everything you say stuns me, you're the most amazing person. You deserve everything I can ever give you and more, you absolutely stunning person. I'm sorry that I can never be everything you deserve. I try my best to make you happy more than anyone, when you're happy I instantly am. I wake up speaking to you, I go to bed speaking to you, and that's not even exaggerating.
I might sound like a dick here, because I'm only young and all that, but I am in love with you. I think about you every second I'm awake. I, Love, You. I can't say it enough and it probably gets annoying :L xx Sorry if it does ;D Every time you say i'm cold, i just want to run the whole way across bracknell just to hug you, but If i did i know i'd never want to let go x I'm sorry I'm occasionally a bit of a dick toward you, and i'm so sorry, really I am, i regret it everytime i am because you mean so much to me and I just don't know what i would do without you.
I want to be with you forever, You're the one for me. Everyone says you know when you've found the one for you, theres that feeling. I can only guess this feeling is it <3
I love you Georgia Ratford, more than anyone else that walks this earth, I love you.
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